I have a problem.. every time I have a crush on someone, whether girl or boy, I automatically know I'm going to go through a bunch of dilemmas. I mean, after all, I am a teenager. It's so hard for me to like someone because I have a distinct taste. I notice that I always fall for the same type. If it's a boy, he's got to be tall and athletic and if it's a girl she's got to be a singer of some sort. It's really unhealthy as I like to call it.
So my taste has allowed me to be in trouble. When I say that, I'm simply admitting to my failures in certain relationships. For instance, me being picky has made me capable of saying no to all the other boys and girls who crush on me. There is always more no's and never any yes's. The ones who I want to say yes to don't even know I exist on this planet. It's really a shame and very disappointing.
There's this one girl right.. she's a tad younger than me and we've been friends for a while. She always hugs me and smiles at me whenever she sees me in the hallways. All my close friends encourage me to talk to her more and get her to text me, but my shy and pessimistic self prevents me from showing my abilities. I just don't understand why I choke up sometimes.. Any other day I'm outgoing and cracking jokes about my phone being a piece of elephant manure. I just don't understand how my mind works.
My friend Lawson goes "Laur, you gotta make a move." And I'm sitting here like no, she doesn't even see me like that. School is over in a few days and I can't even get this girl to text me. I feel like a big bum. My other friends Zipporah and Corrina always tries to boost my confidence up. I never listen though.
I walk into the band room and I try to be Houdini you know, make some magic happen.. which I did! I grabbed her phone and put my number in it. She had no idea of course, but when I walked away I told her I did something that might of damaged her phone. As she looks through every part of her phone, she finally realized what I have done.
"I'll text you."