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Through Time I Must Wait
Pharoah
#1 Posted : Sunday, October 22, 2006 11:39:11 AM(UTC)
Pharoah

Rank: New Next Stepper

Joined: 10/22/2006(UTC)
Posts: 1

For the first time I feel trapped in a maze with no doors, I keep trying to punch through the walls but its no use. Everytime I knock one wall (memory) down, theres another standing behind it. With everyday that passes I try to keep my mind out of the darkness, off of depression, but everytime I try there seems to always be something that brings me back to the past, something in the way (a wall) of me getting my mind out of the darkness of the maze, keeping me from making a door. If you have ever lost something that truly meant something to you, your body, your mind, your soul then you have felt this darkness, youve been in this maze, youve felt lost. Its like your mind can't take anymore of the feelings, of the memories from the times without darkness, but then, then one day when enough time has passed, ("time heals all wounds") you finally feel the cold of the darkness leaving your mind, finally you feel like you did before but your mind stronger than ever. You feel like nothing can put you down, nothing can get in your way. Youve realized you have broken through the walls of the maze, youve finally put the past behind you and found the light to get you out of the darkness, the warmth to overwelm the cold, the strength to finally let it all go and move on. Then you realize that the strength was there all along, you just had to find it in the darkness. Through all this you must wait, "wait through time", until you find the truth, the light, the door, the strength. (Through time I have waited, but not enough time has passed. I am still waiting in the darkness, waiting to find the strength to make a door in the maze of my mind.) -Godspeed
The_Volume_of_Intensity
#2 Posted : Tuesday, October 24, 2006 9:48:11 PM(UTC)
The_Volume_of_Intensity

Rank: New Next Stepper

Joined: 10/19/2006(UTC)
Posts: 4

I, too, have felt this way before... but it got worse and worse with every day... deeper and deeper within "The Maze"... The Battlefield of the Mind... There is a way out... When all seems so unreal, so untruthful... remember this... A man can live 40 days without food, 4 days without water, 4 minutes without air, but can't live 4 seconds without hope. Without hope, would there be reason to do anything? So, evan though at times, reason may be hard to find, remember... that deep down inside, for as long as you're alive, there will always be at least a hidden hope to find. I hope you find the answer! I know of a way that answers all... but, maybe I'll tell you later... not directly though... There is a way... One, but many...

I don't know if these will relate to you much... or if you'll even understand them... but here's a few writings of mine on the topic...

"Painful Memories"

With tears, an ache in my head
I awoke from those dreams which I dread
My life, I controlled
My reactions, I patrolled
But awoke with no sheets on the bed

"Death of Anguished Dreams"

Among nights and days
Departing endless recollection
Stealing the devoured gaze
Through crystalline reflection

Light golden fantasy
Tinted of dark corvine
As deep silver luxury,
Upon a most vivid shine

Obliterate the agony
Let the waves be kissed
Detonate crashing beauty
Carry me with the mist!



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