Hi Midnite,
How delightful that you love to write! I've got an idea for you, one that will let you use your writing to begin to shape the life you want to build for yourself.
Let yourself drift into this writing project:
Describe in detail an ideal day, including the non-school parts.
A truly sun-streaked day.
A single day. Literally the absolute ideal day.
Think about your surroundings; the people you see; the work you do; the fun you have; what you see, hear, taste and touch; how you feel.
Write it in the kind of detail that leads you right into the space of that day. Write it so that you can feel it.
Try not to judge whether it's practical or possible or sensible. Just focus on describing a day that brings a smile to your lips.
Not only will you learn what makes you tick, you'll automatically start creating it, just by writing it down!
Good luck!