I wish I didn’t have to worry so much about useless things. As a 17 year old, maturing under the spotlight, I often find myself doing just that. The thing I want most is grow up and be successful with a nice family, whom I love, and a wonderful career that I may be doing not only for the money. I tend to look at things based upon the big picture, but when it really comes down to it, the little things make me worry just as much.
One example of this is high school drama. Every school has it; every female knows it. While it has absolutely nothing to do with life after high school (most of the time), it still plays a big part in life during high school. It’s something that I’ve never understood, and since I’m not planning on becoming a psychologist, I doubt I ever will. While trying to finish homework or study for a test, I’m constantly asking myself questions. Who can I trust? Who is the enemy here? Is this something to argue about? When I’m at school, I try to listen to the teacher talk while other questions cross my mind. Is he looking at me? Should I say something tonight at the football game? These questions rolling in the back of my mind can be quite distracting.
When I sit down and think about it, high school drama is useless and a waste of time. As I’m worrying about all of these things, I am being distracted from school work, which should be, and usually is, the main focus of my life. To get depressed over a boy not liking me, or a girl spreading rumors, is immature. Very rarely do people fall in love in high school, yet the betraying words, “I love you” have been said by most girls in my class. Although a great deal of the people in this little town of Bethel have grown up here, I see less and less staying in this area. I’m most likely not going to come back to my home town to stay after leaving for college.
The next step in my life is to further my education in a college that makes me feel comfortable. I know that even though life will always have drama, high school drama will most likely be the worst of it. Although as I spend my last year at Bethel-Tate High School, I feel sad to be leaving the people I‘ve learned to deal with for the past twelve years, I also feel relieved. My future is what I worry about over all things, and I’m excited to start working on it without the pressure of the little things.